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Tuesday, June 3, 2014

first post after a year (kinda)

a year past and i just remembered that i have a blog (?!) haha............ no kidding
since facebook and instagram are much more convenient for me, i abandon this fluffy things, yiks, imma bad mommy for my cute lil blog (not really cute btw -.-)

well, what to update actually? i have no idea, thus, i'll just update what's on my mind now, if i want to summarize my second year life, it would be complicated and troublesome, haha, not in the mood for it, yeah, as you can see, i becoming more and more lazy than usual aren't i? LOL

one thing crossed my mind a milisecond ago, "people change", yes, who wouldn't change in this world? changing to become a better person or worst is based on ones' decision, nothing would happen if you not taking action onto it, yes, "you can make the different" (hehe, mcm iklan plak ye jang?)

people tell me "cross the bridge when you see one", "climb the stairs one by one", if you can't walk, then crawl ..... bla bla bla ...... many more to shorten the point.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

maybe it's not now, maybe it's the future

Assalamualaikum,

after 15 minutes wrote previous post,
i scrolled down my fb home and guess what i've read


Success is really attained by him who purifies it, And failure is really suffered by him who pollutes it.


Surah Ash-Shams #9-10

surah ash-shams 91:1-10

The first part deals with three things:
1-That just as the sun and the moon, the day and the night, the earth and the sky, are different from each other and contradictory in their effects and results, so are the good and the evil different front each other and contradictory in their effects and results; they are neither alike in their outward appearance nor can they be alike in their results.
2-That Allah after giving the human self powers of the body, sense and mind has not left it uninformed in the world, but has instilled into his unconscious by means of a natural inspiration the distinction between good and evil, right and wrong, and the sense of the good to be good and of the evil to be evil.
3-That the future of man depends on how by using the powers of discrimination, will and judgement that Allah has endowed him with, he develops the good and suppresses the evil tendencies of the self. If he develops the good inclination and frees his self of the evil inclinations, he will attain to eternal success, and if, on the contrary, he suppresses the good and promotes the evil, he will meet with disappointment and failure. Al-Tustari (d. 896), a Sufi and scholar of the Qur'an, mentions
By the day when it reveals her [the sun],He said:This means: the light of faith removes the darkness of ignorance and extinguishes the flames of the Fire. [17]
Al-TustariTafsir Al-Tustari: Great Commentaries of the Holy Qur'an [18]
read more about ash-shams on wiki

it stunned me,
after wondered about those words and think deeply about it,
it somehow answers some of my worries,


totally freak out about second year

Assalamualaikum,

sorry to complain but . . .
i tell you, i'm totally freak out about the new semester, my pointer and everything makes me wanna sick . . . i'm so down right now, like totally . . .

i'll try to do my best but that wouldn't guarantee that it will make everything better, i lost my confident and hopes, i know life has its own up and down, and now i'm so down till the bottom of the earth . . .

i had tried my best till now, but i don't know if what i did will pleasant my parents, will makes them happy, they always said "it's okay, u'd tried your best, u can always do better next time" but, why am i feel that what i did is not good enough? i tried hard to do better but somehow it always turned out the same, no matter how hard i've tried, everything still . . . everything still . . . well . . . this !

Rabbi, what am i good at? why am i born in this world? what are the purposes of me being alive? i just need answers, answers that can help me . . .

i know i live for something . . . but what is that something?
just curious and anxious about it . . . i hope i can help something or anything by being me

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Smart Camp SCUH CFS IIUM 2013

Assalamualaikum,
huhu, these picts are part of the unforgettable memories we had during the camp :