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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

randomness of me today

today i feel kinda mix up.... for some reasons i feel happy and some others i feel sad and miserable..... and because of that, i laid back and think.... but when i think, i could only think that i'm becoming further away from Allah...... that's why i felt lost and unsettle...... however, i strongly agreed with my conclusion because these past few days.... i frequently only focus on the world than Allah.... i always looking for fun rather than tafakur...... and i prefer busying myself with nonsense than anything useful for future use.....
felt like i'm a bad girl.... a bad girl that looking for fun rather than focusing on my responsibility...... a bad girl that would forget the way i used to be.... a bad girl that lied to everyone and especially to myself........ but even tough i said so, i would turn over a new leaf and start something new.....
it's all depends on me.... weather i would change or not... but all i need to do is FoCUS! FOCUS! FOCUS!

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